You guys are the best. Thanks for all the nice comments and encouragement you’ve given me via comments here on the blog and email.
Yesterday was actually a pretty great day. We kept busy, I got stuff done around the house, and didn’t turn the tv on once. The dark clouds parted and I ended the day feeling satisfied and full – especially after a great Bible study.
I have to admit, after I posted yesterday, I actually felt a little embarrassed. Why? Because I had a down day? Well, yes – I think that was the crux of it. Realistically, I know that everyone has these types of days from time to time. It is out of the norm for me, for that I’m thankful, what I’m not used to is airing those emotions on a public forum like this for all to see. Oh well, it’s the truth and sometimes you just need to let the truth out.
To be honest, when I would hear the really sweet comments regarding my quilts, for example: "I don’t know how you do it!" and "When do you have the time?!", I’d feel a tinge of something… what… guilt? Maybe. If they would only see the 2 days worth of dishes in my sink, or know that I had my husband bring home fast food because I didn’t have time to cook, or see the insurmountable pile of laundry that had accumulated due to my neglect, or listen to both children recite every. single. word. of Chicken Little, or see the bags under my eyes from pulling an all-nighter trying to get a quilt done! So yeah, that’s how I was doing it all. Now you know I’m not Superwoman.
But, oh – how I love to quilt! I think it would be the only hobby/job that I would be willing to majorly sacrifice for (in terms of time and money) in order to pursue, at the right time and not when it means sacrificing my duties as wife & mom first.
It will come. The time will eventually come. I’m gaining much-needed perspective during this time and prioritizing accordingly. Lesson learned!
Yes, the blog shall go on! And it won’t always be filled with emotional drivel, either. Gosh, I need to muster up a fun one and let ‘er loose before the week is out.
Jessie, the thing I admire most about you, (besides your beautiful quilts and quilting) is that you are so transparent in your blogs! I don’t know when we reached the point that we have to only show our perfect sides to the public, but I think that it is the reason so many people have emotional problems. Biblically, we are to share our problems with others so that they can pray and support us. And, isn’t it emotionally releasing to say, hey! I’m not perfect but I am real! You have a great deal of courage and it is something that we all need to take a page out of your book! Life isn’t always fine.
One thing that is apparent to me is that God is at work in your life. Nothing is more pleasing to Him than when we are obedient. It’s harder when it means giving up something that we love, but you have already felt the peace from being obedient.
PS…my sink gets full of dishes, the laundry piles up, everything needs dusted and my little Cletus is feeling neglected….thanks for pointing out that I need to follow your lead!